Foresight Is So Often Blind

Healthy Cookies

2012-02-05T17:13:00.002-05:00

Well, healthier anyway.

I felt the need to bake this weekend. I wanted to bake for me, not for anyone else. I haven't made anything since before the holidays. Christmas cookies wore me out a little bit. I did, however, win my work's bake-off. Now I can say "My award-winning peanut butter cookies". And I do.

Anyway. I had bought dark chocolate chips and wanted to do something with them because yum. I've had this recipe for a while. It was good to start with, but I modified it a bit. (Originally they were called Bev's Chocolate Chip Cookies from cooks.com or somewhere.)

I got 2 dozen out of this recipe, but they were pretty big.

Ingredients

3/4 cup rolled oats (I have 5 min oats that were ground in a food processor, but one minute oats work, too).
1 cup whole-wheat flour
1/2 teaspoon baking soda
1/4 cup salted butter, softened (I don't use extra salt if the butter's salted)
1/4 cup plain applesauce (Bev used canola oil, but I like applesauce or fruit butters)
1/3 cup granulated sugar
1/3 cup brown sugar
1 large egg
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
1ish cup dark chocolate chips-I always throw a little extra in there

Preparation

Preheat oven to 350°F.
Beat butter in a large bowl with an electric mixer until fluffy. Add applesauce, granulated sugar, brown sugar, egg and vanilla; beat until smooth and creamy. Add the dry ingredients, beating on low speed until just combined. Stir in chocolate chips.
Drop the dough by heaping teaspoonfuls, at least 1 inch apart, onto the prepared baking sheets. Bake cookies about 15 minutes. Cool the cookies for 2 minutes on the baking sheets, then transfer to wire racks to cool completely.

I want to try some variations on this. Maybe add in some kind of spice, they seemed a touch flat. I'd also like to sub pumpkin or pumpkin butter for the applesauce and throw in some pumpkin seeds as well. I'd even take out the applesauce and add some peanut butter. The dark chocolate is delicious though, so I'd leave them in.

Sorry for the lack of photos. I'll try to remember to take some next time.

I Want to be Bamboozled

2012-01-23T08:35:00.000-05:00

Check out the lineup! (There's also a bunch of people that I've never heard of because I'm old now apparently.) (Full lineup here.)

ANYWAY.

I'd LOVE to see Foo Fighters and Blink. And on the same day would be abosolutely amazeballs. I've seen Motion City Soundtrack live before, and I wouldn't mind seeing them again. I'm not really sure how Pauly D fits in there, other than the fact that the festival's in Jersey. I went to Bamboozle a few years ago and Method Man sweated on me, so I guess Pauly D's not all that weird.

Road trip anyone?

Javawhat?

2012-01-19T08:12:00.001-05:00

I did my first Codecademy Code Year lesson last night. If you haven't heard of it-it's a free way to learn Javascript, which is one of the beginner-friendly code languages. I feel pretty accomplished, but I don't know how much of the information I retained.

It explained what code to write and what is does. But the lessons don't really explain how to apply it or why I'm being shown how to do loops or whatever. I'm hoping that it will get a little more descriptive as I go along and I'll be a javascript genius in a few months.

I also want to learn html/xhtml. I do marketing e-mails for work and I'd love to not have to use the templates-some of which are very outdated looking. I have a "For Dummies" book and a few books my step-dad gave me from his classes (he teaches about computers, etc). I'm also hoping that I'll be good enough at this stuff to do it on the side so I can quit job #2.

I just need to stop knitting and watching so much Grey's Anatomy and get on it. My problem is that when I tell myself not to do something, then that thing is all I want to do.

Fingers crossed I can get over that sooner rather than later.

I'm BaAaaaack

2012-01-11T08:51:00.001-05:00

I haven’t written in a while.

Not because nothing has happened, I just haven’t felt like it. I didn't really mean to take a two month hiatus. Sorry.

So here’s the rundown:

· I went to DC the weekend after Thanksgiving. My cousin goes to George Mason and Aunt Mary Ann was there visiting. So Aunt Irene, Katie, and I went down to visit. We also went to the Smithsonian. I wish we had more time there. I’ve never visited DC before-only driven through. Which seems silly now considering it’s only like 3 hours away.

· I visited Mom and Papa Steve for 5 days the weekend before Christmas. It was fun and relaxing. It just doesn’t feel like Christmas down there. Although, I feel like more people decorate there than here.

· Christmas was good. All of the gifts I got were useful and won’t sit in the bottom of my closet (like that purse-hanger thing I got last year). I got a Kindle Fire, gift cards, a pretty sweet Phillies hat (it’s plaid!), a very cozy blanket that I wish I was curled up in right now, this Wizard of Oz poster, and some other smaller things.

· Kellifish had the baby! Her name is Lily Alaina and she’s a little peanut.

· Coconuts (Dana) got engaged.

· I set some goals for the New Year-most of which have to do with paying off debt. One has to do with jumping out of a plane with my brother.

· I signed up for Code Academy’s Code Year. I have the first lesson sitting in my inbox and I plan to get to it this weekend.

· I’ve been watching far too much Grey’s Anatomy. I’m trying to catch up to the current season. I’ve been knitting while watching, so at least I’m being productive.

· The Foo Fighters and Blink 182 are playing Bamboozle this year. I really think I’ll need to go.

· I want snow. Just one good snow day where I don’t have to go to work. Then it can be as mild of a winter as it wants.

I’m hoping by posting I’ll get back into the groove of writing. I hope everyone had a great holiday season!

PS-I'll post some photos of some of the things from the list later. I just felt like I needed to hit publish before I put it off any longer.

Current Loves/Obsessions

2011-11-15T08:44:00.001-05:00

1. All of the leaves and fallness going on. I’m so glad we didn’t skip right to winter. Well, actually I’m glad we circled back to fall (re October snow).

2. Once Upon a Time and Grimm. They’re taking all my favorite Disney movies and making them kind of dark and twisty. I’m a little in love with it. Grimm’s not as creepy as I thought it would be.

3. I just started watching Grey’s Anatomy from the beginning again. I stopped after season 5 (I think-whenever they killed George.) Apparently it’s getting good again, so I’m going to get myself caught up.

4. Knitting. I’m in a groove. I want to knit everything.

5. Finding a dark red or maroon sweater dress that has long or ¾ sleeves. I had no idea how difficult this would be. Maybe I’ll try to knit one. Or not. I’m not a gauge checker.

6. Adele’s album. Why did it take me so long to download it? Specifically “One and Only”. This song makes me wish I could sing.

Here Comes the Sun…At 6:15 am

2011-11-08T12:13:00.003-05:00

I hate fall back time. I’d much rather drive to work in the dark. It being dark at 5:30 makes me tired. When it’s darker later in the morning on the weekends I sleep in better.

I guess there’s nothing I can really do about it. Short of refusing to accept it. I could always move to Arizona. They don’t follow it. Is there anything to do in Arizona? Apparently this is Standard time, though. I don’t like standard.

On the bright side, yoga was much less crowded Sunday. I don’t know if I can thank Daylight Savings for that or not. But it worked out. I also got a little braver in class. I decided that since I didn’t feel like going and almost skipped (and there were less people), I’d push myself a little bit more. I got myself into two full binds and flipped my dog*. I’ve always been afraid that a) I’d kick my neighbor, or b) I wouldn’t be able to unflip.

*When you’re in downward dog: go into down dog split, stack your hips, and flip your free leg over. Google it.

On the bright side, I got a lot done over the weekend. Errands and such. And even had some relaxing time to watch movies and continue knitting projects. I do need to make an effort to go out with my friends though. I don’t want to go into Winter hermit mode just yet. The freak October snowstorm threw me off (Probably. Might have been laziness. Could really go either way.).

Applesauce, Fires, Yoga and Sushi

2011-10-31T18:49:00.000-04:00

It was a pretty good week around here. I got together with one of my biffles for a delicious dinner at the sushi buffet. I ate so much. I slept really well that night, too. I think there may be a correlation.

The weekend wasn't all that exciting. We got some snow in this area, so we had a nice fire going and my aunt was cooking away in the kitchen. I learned how to make applesauce, too. It's really not that hard. Just peel and core the apples, put them in a pot, add some water, cook them down. She whisks it because we like it a little chunky, and you add cinnamon. And maybe some sugar depending on how tart the apples are. That's it. Then you eat a cup of warm applesauce because YUM. (Side note: applesauce is delicious on Belgian waffles.)

I spent the rest of the day sitting in front of the fire knitting. I made a lot of progress, so I'm happy about that. I can say that I will have it done in time for Christmas as planned.

I did manage to get myself to yoga both Saturday and Sunday. Saturday's my beginner class. I want to make sure I have a good foundation. Usually I'll head over to the gym and at least run after it. Sunday is the all levels Vinyasa. Vinyasa is when you flow from pose to pose. It kicks my butt. I did get myself into a half bind in side angle pose, though. That's the next step in getting into bird of paradise.

Courtesy of Google

My strength and balance are getting better, and I really enjoy the classes. I want to try a retreat sometime next year I think. There's one this week in Vermont that combines yoga and knitting. Sounds kind of perfect for me.

I hope everyone had a lovely weekend!

I'm Totally Phoning It In

2011-10-24T14:41:00.000-04:00

I was planning on writing for real today, but I saw my horoscope and thought it was better.

"It's harder these days to take your responsibilities lightly because the Moon and somber Saturn are both in your sign, setting the tone for the day. Don't waste precious energy trying to put on a cheerful face for others, just because that's what they expect from you. It isn't your job to make everyone feel okay about the issues you face. Nevertheless, it's up to you to look inward and ask yourself tough questions so you can gain clarity about the next phase of your life."

This part is worth a repeat: It isn't your job to make everyone feel okay about the issues you face.

I want to add: or the decisions that you make.

Real post later this week. Probably.

Fall: Leaves, Pumpkins, and Cute Clothes

2011-10-13T08:34:00.000-04:00

Via PhiladelphiaFallFestival.com

I love fall. And it’s not because the first day of autumn usually falls on my birthday. I used to hate it because of school starting. But now, I love the change in the seasons. The cool air coming in through the open window is welcome after all the humidity we had this year. One of my favorite sounds is the wind through the crackly leaves. Am I too old for leave piles? This is why I borrow other people’s kids. I’m excited to get out my boots and my scarves (I have a lot), and wear my cute jackets. I’m such a fan of being cozy. The only problem with fall is that it leads to winter, which would be fine if it only lasted like a week. Or my office actually closed on snow days.

I’m also a fan of the food that comes along with the cooler weather. My aunt makes everything from scratch, and she starts to stock the freezer in October. Cooking started Monday. She got the bug and made 2 kinds of soup, a stew, meatballs, spaghetti sauce, and some meatloaves.

I also start to eat oatmeal again when it gets cooler. I feel like it’s too heavy for the warmer weather. Health Magazine told me to put cocoa on plain oatmeal because cocoa has good-for-you-stuff in it. So I did. And I added some peanut butter and a bit of sugar and OH MY GIDDY GOD was it GOOD! It’s like eating that Reese’s cereal stuff, but hot. Try it. You’ll thank me.

Aunt P also made pumpkin cookies. I want everything pumpkin right now. Including an actual pumpkin that I can carve. Might have to do that this year, too. I hope everyone's enjoying the season!

Tidbits

2011-10-05T09:26:00.000-04:00

I decided to not really care about diet so much for the last couple of weeks. This has resulted in a 5 pound weight gain. My goal is to drop that, plus a little more as a cushion, before the holiday foodfests begin. Fingers crossed. I'm planning on cardio 3 days a week, yoga twice, and weight training once or twice. I also found out my old yoga teacher (from hot yoga last year) is teaching pole dancing at my gym. I may have to try it.
Kellifish’s baby shower is this weekend. I’m very excited that I got the blanket done. I’m making cupcakes for the shower, so I just have to get those done and I’ll be good. Here’s a little preview. It’s knit, purl, and seed stitches. It’s supposed to have a hood on the corner, but I don’t think I’m a fan.

I need to start thinking about what I’m getting/making people for Christmas. I know for sure what I’m getting most people.
I wanted to start building at Habitat asap. The soonest available date is October 27. Which is a Thursday, when I work 2 jobs. So I’ll probably end up going to the Women Build site (which is not as close to me) the first Saturday in November. I would have thought they’d have more Saturdays available. Shows what I know.
I really need to either find a different job #2 or start doing something on the side. It’s making me stabby and I don’t like it.
I dislike people who come into job #2 wearing Phillies jerseys/tshirts/hats/etc while there's a NLDS GAME GOING ON RIGHT NOW. Are there assigned seats on the bandwagon? Meanwhile, I'm trying to check scores on my phone, which we're not allowed to use while we're clocked in because we can fired for it. Awesome. Game 4 tonight! Also, who picks the times for these games? 6:07? What is that?

If I Ever Have Kids...

2011-09-26T19:07:00.001-04:00

I want this for my baby.


Via Outblush

Confused? Love this scene? Love David Bowie?

Just Another Manic Monday

2011-09-19T20:43:00.001-04:00

Okay, not really. But one of the radio stations here is sponsoring a Bangles concert, so the song got in my head.

I had the fattest week I've had in a reeeally long time last week. i figured since I didn't have to fit into my bridesmaid dress any more, I deserved it a little. I still worked out, but only about half as much as usual (plus I didn't work out today-I'm on doggy duty and I didn't want to put Otis back in his crate after he had been there all day (yes I'm using the dog as an excuse)). And oh, my friends, did I eat. Enchiladas, fried dough, doughnuts, mac and cheese with bacon baked right in, ice cream for dinner, soup in bread bowls. So tasty.

It's going to be a little difficult to get back in a healthier state of mind and body. Especially since eating all that cheese and sugar just makes me feel like taking a nap. I'll ease myself in this week. Maybe. My birthday is Friday, so I've got at least one happy hour and one dinner on the schedule.

And a massage. I can't wait. My back has been so sore lately. Too much sitting, slouching, stressing, etc. I have a knot the size of a walnut in my shoulder, so I am very excited. Yay for Living Social and $40 massages!

On a completely unrelated note-I did the volunteer orientation for Habitat for Humanity. I'm so excited to go to a build. There's one maybe 10 minutes from my house. I've wanted to do it since high school, and it just kind of hit me one day....why haven't I? So I am. I like being able to physically help someone out. Plus I learned a lot about the organization that I didn't know. Job #1 is for a not-for-profit, but I don't get to see a direct correlation between what I do there and how it effects who we're serving. This way I will be. Plus, who doesn't like getting their hands dirty every once in a while?

And There Was A Wedding

2011-09-12T20:01:00.002-04:00

Kellifish is now a Missus! I'm so unbelievably happy for them. She's now lounging on a beach in Aruba spending time with her hubby. As the MOH, I had to give a speech. I hate public speaking. I always have. I don't know why. I'm great one on one, but in front of 20-50-100 people I get nervous, my heart pounds, I get really hot, and turn various shades of pink. Here's my speech. Short and sweet so I could sit the eff down quickly.

I’ve knownKelli since 8^th grade. Andwe’ve talked a lot about weddings and getting married and prospective grooms,but back then we were mostly referring to Justin Timberlake (and fighting overhim).

We’ve seeneach other through a lot- boyfriends and breakups, hard times and the besttimes. Almost three years ago we werehanging out and Kelli started getting texts from some guy at her new job. She said his name was D and said that shewas “like, in love with him. Well not inlove, but you know what I mean.” SoI knew I had to keep an eye on this one.

It doesn’tseem like too long ago that they started dating. And it seems like justyesterday that D contacted me for a top secret mission and sent me somepictures of engagement rings. Sincegetting to know D and seeing him and Kelli together, you can just feel howmuch they care about each other and you get a sense of the love that’s there.

Theafternoon of the rehearsal dinner Kelli, Amanda, and I were talking upstairsand we heard D laughing at something on TV downstairs. And Kelli said “I love Saturday mornings whenI’m still lying in bed and I just hear him laughing at something on TV.” And I could see in her face how happy she isand how they’re just right.

I’m soexcited for you two as you start your new life and your family. And I wish you all the best.

The wedding was lovely. They had a piper since D is Scottish. She/we got compliments on her dress, the bridesmaids dresses, the centerpieces (which we made), the flowers and everything. I really feel blessed to have been a part of it. She's the first one of my close friends to get married, and even though it was stressful I wouldn't trade it for the world.

Congratulations, Biffle!

Cast On

2011-09-01T15:48:00.000-04:00

Image via google

I love knitting.

I love being able to make something and give it to someone I care about and it meaning something. I’m a big fan of making gifts for people. There was a year or two that I made pimp cups for all my friends for their birthdays. They were pretty sweet if I do say so myself.

Anyway.

I have more yarn than I have time to turn into things. I'd like to do a craft fair some time and sell the scarves and washclothes that I have piling up. I can make a scarf without looking at my hands-which means it’s perfect when I’m catching up on the TV that I missed. But when I’m working on something with a pattern, like a blanket, it become almost meditative. Knit, purl, knit, purl, knit, etc. It stops my brain. In a good way. And there are few things that can stop what goes on in my head.

I’m working on a baby blanket for my baffle. I hope it turns out cute. I also I hope I get it done in time for her shower. I also have plans to make a little hat for her. I need to find a pattern that I can manipulate a little.

Maybe one day I’ll get to the blanket that I want to make for myself. Do you have any favorite hobbies?

Happy long weekending!

Hurricane Day

2011-08-26T10:45:00.000-04:00

So I have an Aunt Irene...can I blame her for any damages to my stuff?

And why is Mother Nature so pissed off this week? I’m so glad I don’t have to work on Sundays anymore-when Irene is set to hit my area. She is getting in the way of my yoga class, though. And since I haven’t been able to go the last two weeks, I’m in a fight with her. Guess who’ll win that one?

My county is in the “Tropical Storm Warning” area as opposed to the “Hurricane” area. For now. I guess that’ll depend on which way Irene swings. My aunt in Jersey had to evacuate, she’s making her way to my house today. And my other aunts in Delaware and the Outer Banks got out of dodge as well.

My hurricane activity options list is pretty good. I’m prepared for with and without electricity. My aunt suggested making hurricanes and then playing Pirates of the Caribbean Monopoly (“But why is the rum gone?”). I also have quite a few books to choose from, but I’ve finally started “Pride and Prejudice and Zombies”, so I’ll probably stick with that. I could also watch the “Pride and Prejudice” DVD (BBC version!), I’ve got a couple of Joy Juice prompts coming my way, and a few assorted knitting projects.

I’m planning on yoga and running tomorrow. I don’t want to use the hurricane as an excuse not to work out. I've also got to move my car away from the giant tree in my driveway. Luckily there's an empty parking lot across the street I can probably use. If not, that's why have insurance. But, I'd like to avoid as much damage to Lucille as possible. And we've got water, batteries, a cellar pump and all that jazz set up for safety and stuff.

Do you have anything planned for the storm?

I hope everyone has a safe weekend!

Grandparents, Baseball, and Happy Bottom

2011-08-22T15:07:00.001-04:00

Yesterday was my Great Aunt Gladys’s 90^th birthday party. (She’s also known as Happy Bottom. Get it? Gladys=Glad Ass à Happy Bottom.)

Anyway…

Ninety. That’s so old. She’s still pretty quick though.

I love old people. Probably because I don’t have any grandparents that are still alive. I love when they come into job #2. There’s just something about a cute old man that melts my heart. Both of my grandfathers were adorable. Seriously. One of my favorite memories is of my Pop-pop mouthing the words to “Take Me Out to the Ball Game” while watching a baseball game (I'm a baseball girl because of him). Mom-mom passed when I was still in elementary school, so I can’t remember too much about her (my memory is not so great all the time), but I do have a photo of me, here, and my cousin’s daughter that I love. Grandma and Grandpa were cute because they were small, Polish, and such happy people. My idea of the love that I want comes from them.

Both my grandfathers died at 85 and with Happy Bottom turning 90 I know that I have longevity in my genes. Along with some pesky things like heart disease, but that’s why we have exercise. I do wish my grandparents were still around, but some of my happiest memories are from spending time with them, so I can’t be too upset about it.

Anyone know of any old people I can adopt?

I Kind of Suck, but the Shore Does Not

2011-08-15T09:57:00.000-04:00

You guys…I kind of sucked at being healthy last week. I didn’t work out at all. Unless you count walking on the boardwalk exercise. Which I would, except that I got Kohr Brothers frozen custard and a small is NOT a small. But chocolate and peanut butter swirl is SO worth it.

Anyways-I skipped the gym Monday because my legs still hurt from Saturday and Sunday. Except I forgot that Wednesday was my friend’s bf’s bday-so I skipped that day too. And then I was at the shore Friday-Sunday (re: Kohr Brothers), so I missed my Saturday gym time and my Sunday yoga. I took my running shoes with the best of intentions, but being lazy got the better of me. Also, I ate way more cream cheese brownies, cheese curls, and ring bologna than I’d like to admit. I’m really afraid to get on the scale, so we’ll just wait on that until my normal weigh-in day this weekend.

So we’re getting serious now. I have three and a half weeks to look amazeballs in my bridesmaid’s dress and I am determined, damn it! So here’s the plan:

1. Eat less crap. That means anything from the bakery at job #2 except fruit cups. No baking for the next few weeks. And choosing meals out wisely.

2. Not eating the free food that’s left on the table in the lunch room.

3. Getting back on track with C25k, ie running 3 days a week (Monday, Wednesday, Saturday)

4. Going to yoga twice a week. Beginner’s class on Saturdays before I hit the gym for running and so weights. And Vinyasa on Sunday to get the week started right. Side note-Vinyasa is effing hard. Downward dog is our “rest position”. My shoulders/arms best look amazing at the end of this.

I’m already on track. Sort of. There are a couple of brownies left, but I did not buy fudge on the boardwalk this weekend. I could have…the other girls did, but I didn’t. This is a first and also a little bit of a miracle.

The weekend was fun though. It was a bridal beach weekend. We were down a bridesmaid because she had to work, but it was still fun. I got to read, lie on the beach, eat, and help the youngest girl with her summer history homework. We hardly turned on the TV, except Sunday before we left because the weather was crappy. Hopefully I’ll be able to get down there once more before the summer is over, but it might not happen because there’s so much going on.

The only part that was less than awesome was the drive home. It took three and a half hours. Ridiculous for what’s supposed to be a two hour drive. FYI-New Jersey floods in heavy rain. Not a fan. You know it’s bad when I’m happy to see the Blue Route. (For those of you not from this area-I hate the Blue Route. It’s always, always backed up at some point no matter what time of day I take it. And it’s usually for no reason.)

I hope you all had a good weekend!

I Can't Think of a Title...

2011-08-08T19:25:00.000-04:00

Last week was a rollercoaster. And not of love. (Say what?) (Now I’m going to have that song stuck in my head for the rest of the day).

I had official wedding duties, helped a friend (ok, ex-manfriend) going through a really hard time (he’s feeling a lot better and is going to work on the stuff that he needs to work on), finally got to the city (Varga! Yay!), and cleared most of my to-do list. So I checked out during my free time. I hardly read (Knit Two-Friday Night Knitting Club novel (I wish I was in a knitting club)), but I watched a lot of On Demand. Which doesn’t really count as productive, but I needed it.

This week is going to be more of the same: taking the bad with the good. My mom had an MRI and was diagnosed with stenosis. She’s going to meet with her doctors and figure out what her options are. And this weekend I’m headed to the shore with the rest of the bridal party to relax. This is Kellifish’s bachelorette weekend. Which will be really low-key considering she’s pregnant and three of the other girls are under 21. I’m hoping that goes off without a hitch (fingers crossed).

On a completely unrelated note-I hurt. I’ve increased my workout time to 4 days a week and I overdid it this weekend. I finished out week 2 of the couch to 5k program and did some (too heavy) weights Saturday, and then I went to vinyasa yoga on Sunday and headed into the city. I didn’t do too much walking because it was ridiculously humid, but my friend lives on the third floor, so there were stairs.

I’ll be looking for a 5k to do in the fall. Hopefully I won’t make a fool of myself. What’s a good time for a 5k? I feel like 30 minutes would be good for me. Anyone have any running tips?

PS- I skipped the gym today. I'll make it up later in the week, but I can hardly walk right today let alone run. I hate making excuses. Urgh.

Bird of Paradise

2011-07-25T08:20:00.002-04:00

I got a Groupon for a new yoga studio not too long ago and went yesterday for my first class there. It was an all levels Vinyasa class. And holy downward dog I am feeling it today. I'm still relatively new to yoga-I've done maybe 12 classes total with an instructor-but I feel like I did pretty well. Balance has usually been my goal intentioni for my classes, but I've set myself a new yoga goal. THIS:

Image via ehow.com

This is Bird of Paradise pose. It's a binding pose which was too difficult for me to do. I have issues with my hips and with balance, so I feel like if I achieve this pose-and can hold it for a repectable amount of time-I will have accomplished something.

Wish me luck! Better yet, wish that I'll be able to get out of the pose once I get into it...